Thursday, April 29, 2010

People (or demos) that don't exist, part 3

I don't remember if I have ever written the previous "People that don't exist" articles here (maybe part 1 but not 2).

In greek we say "Den yparxei" (Δεν υπάρχει!) - he doesn't exist, or "Den yparxoun" for plural (Δεν υπάρχουν!) - they don't exist. It is actually a slang that one says when he finds that another person did some extraordinary weird and cool thing. Actually, another internet slang describing this action is Epic Win :)

The people who don't exist are two polish sceners, a graphician and a musician. What they have done at a recent polish party (Stary Piernik 5) can only be described as astronomically epic win. In short words, they presented a quite good demo (according to the audience) at the big screen and later one of them holds the disk of the demo and says "I would like to say something. This is the one and only copy of this demo. This demo wasn’t here." and then he goes close to the campfire and throws the disk in the fire.


Isn't that epical win squared? Or is it tremendously lame? I guess those where the mixed feelings of the 15 people who were at the party and the rest of the C64 scene.

Funny enough, even the title of the demo is sooo close with my rant about the greek slang. The demo doesn't exist. The demo wasn't there. Hahaha!!!

I read more funny things about this in CSDb and other sources. The demo is actually based on several old unreleased effects/parts from Fenek, a coder from Arise. The graphician Bimber and musician Wacek from the same group made the whole demo alone. Even the coder wonders, where the hell did they found his old unreleased previews?! The two guys without having much knowledge about coding spent two months connecting all the things together. (and that's why I write "effects/parts" in one point, maybe there are parts ready to be loaded and decrunched and only few calls are needed, because even if you have fragments of code from others it's not as easy for a coder (how much for those two people) to connect all the parts together without previous experience.) Screenshots of the demo can be seen in both the above links and they feature line vectors in a tunnel formation, a voxel landscape and maybe more.

But why You may ask? Whhyyyyyyy??? Bimber said that the demo was made exclusively for the people who came to the party to have the pleasure that only them have seen something that nobody will never see again. I say it was a joke, a stunt, a surprising and funny act, an epic win, something that we may never see again happening in a demoparty. Of course it's not the first time that a demo gets shown at a demoparty but never gets released, but for other reasons. The demo is not a final version, the coder doesn't want to release it yet or he thinks the demo is so ugly. Or someone has lost the sources. But this was different. This was a deliberate attempt at 8bit suicide =)

It's also like they are laughing at us. All these years I was struggling to create some good demos and even if I didn't succeed to make something really really good, I always was scared of the idea that whatever I have done could be lost after a hard disk crash or a virus or anything. I frantically gathered back ups and was getting too serious about it. And those guys just made a multipart demo with several effects, presented it at the party and then threw it away!

Ok,. maybe they are playing with us. Maybe this was just a stunt and they are still going to release a final. But that act on the demoparty is a thumb up alone from me. These people don't exist!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Things that you do when you can't find the English subtitles.

  • 1. Download the Spanish subtitles.

  • 2. Create an empty html file and paste the subs between {pre} and {/pre} in the body.

  • 3. Upload this html file somewhere in a server (I am using a temp folder somewhere in my space).

  • 4. Type in your browser.

  • 5. Paste the URL of your html in 'translate an address' and select Spanish to English.

  • 6. Copy the resulted translated text and paste it as a plane text in a .srt file

  • 7. ....

  • 8. PROFIT!!!

This is what I have to do with John Doe series. Nobody has ever made some proper English subs (apart from some strange subs I found in a random site, only for the 1st episode, where "I know I have to save that girl" is translated as "You know, you saved Germany!" and "I know the answer to the most things, but not how things feel" was translated to "boring..". Surely my babelfish translation is better :), there are only Spanish and Portugal translations. The series didn't last two long, only one episode, and the main hero talks soooo fast (because of the concept of these series) that it would be already a pain in the ass for the translators and if the series weren't important enough, nobody just cared to translate them. And the thing is that, in other series or movies when I can't find a translation I can easily watch it without them. But this one, the hero speaks so fast and outputs sooo much information that subtitles are essential, maybe even for English people(?). The series, great concept, bad execution. Sometimes laughable, comical. But I will watch it till the end with my little way to generate the subs, babelfish translated subs is better than nothing for these series, the concept is interesting and I always liked those strange or paranormal stuff. I will watch it even if it was disappointing and every time I need to generate the subs it takes some process.

I watch these series regularly: Lost, Fringe, Flash Forward, House MD, 24.
I plan to try and watch: Firefly, Eureka, Big Bang Theory (I have already seen some episodes scattered, with friends already), Battlestar galactica (I have watched few episodes in the beginning but I want to follow the story). Any more interesting sci-fi/paranormal stuff? Or maybe something of other kinds, like Jericho (I really liked this one)?

Thursday, April 15, 2010

And yet yet yet another blog.

This will be easy and fun to update :)

Every time I am playing some game, I feel like I have to grab a screenshot at a specific point that is either hilarious or has a particular beauty as a still.

I was playing Test Drive Unlimited yesterday (great game!). I got some screenshots as first posts. I guess Fraps will be my friend from now on :)

Random Screenshot Blog

Friday, April 09, 2010

Life v.2.0

Important changes are happening. I sometimes feel different about things. I am also close to an important point in my life. The external changes are those which are going to happen if I finish with my studies and get a job somewhere in UK (are anywhere outside Greece). But the most important changes I am talking about are inside me.

I have self-esteem. I can produce it. Regardless if it's true or not. I feel more free about everything, I can be sure that I can live my life no matter what this will look like and feel confident about it. I have resolved personal matters and feel stronger about them.

I don't know what is happening. I don't know the reasons for this but there must be many. I came here to study, living alone, enjoying a more free life. At the same time I am more determined about this and more confident about myself. My psychological condition is better to enjoy it this time (remember, I have done it before with Erasmus but I was much younger and in a worse condition). Maybe I relaxed a bit from other things that bothered me, even if at the same time I was too much stressed with my studies. Maybe I was just working it out for years, resolving those matter concerning who I want to be and what people want me to be and all that stuff, and I came to be stronger.

The thing is, this change for example renders senseless some of my blogs. When I feel well with myself and I don't even need to prove it to others, there is no need to write such kind of texts like the ones at The struggle of normality or maybe even Computer Hermit. Even though when I read some of the old posts then I like them. But I feel weird about them. Sometimes I am even thinking I was writing too much about myself and maybe I shouldn't (and usually I was reactive to this idea of hiding one self and pretending to be another thing). So, I guess they will survive, I can't kill them. I only want to say that I have changed so much these days that I sometimes feel I don't need to write in these blogs.

Of course I don't say that I won't return back to my original state after few days or weeks. My latest post in one of these blogs was quite sadden and I was feeling vengeful for those people who fucked up my life as exactly I wrote. I get memories back and I wish I was living again those childhood days with my current state of mind so that I kick their ass. I was in the good mood I describe here days before that post. So, it's not like I won't find any chance to be in that sadden mood that allows me to write those texts. But something is happening and I want to keep the positive side of this mood more dominant.

The personality is what you get when you add all your past experiences, beliefs, things you hate, things you love and the complete idea you have about yourself. At my current age most of these things are crystalized, they are already determined. Yet you keep working on something, you try to challenge your beliefs, you try to improve something in your condition and you definitely have to change something from these crystalized habits.

More than a year ago I wrote those three rules. Rule number one is something that lasts forever. It's so important for me and it has never betrayed me. Quest for truth. To know (oneself, the world). Year by year it proves to be totally worth and it never kills me. Maybe not for others but for my kind of personality I need it. The rest of the rules was something like a joke but there was really a rule number two that I concealed.

I don't remember the 2nd rule. It has to do with the fact that people don't care about the reality, they get their self-esteem by living in their own imaginary world. Nobody cares about the truth. People are actors, it's only important that they play their role that makes them feel confident. They can contradict with what they say and not realize it. I couldn't do that because I am very attached to the truth, the reality that seems to be there, not the things that I would like to believe.

The 2nd rule was about playing their game. Even in a way that it would ridicule the whole concept. It's the ironic feeling one friend said about it. I don't remember how did I expressed that rule. It was about being fed up with myself caring all these years while people just play the game of socialization and godlike self-esteem. Some of these people might come to me and tell me to get a life and criticize myself and when they do this you suddenly thing that they are not playing a game, they are serious about what is there. But they are not. Because later their actions contradict with what they said. Most people will react to this idea right now. Because another role we put to ourselves is to think that we are right and we are talking the facts, we are not playing a role but we are ourselves.

It doesn't matter. The fact is that I implanted those ideas these years and they seem to let me have this self-esteem. Even as a reaction. When something makes me feel bad, I remember that nobody cares even if they seem like this. I remember that the whole thing is a game and the world is lie. But it works. It has played a role too in stop caring and living my life. It doesn't matter if my life is a "successful" one or just sitting in front of my computer writing this and eating junk food. As long as I can be confident about it and even ignore people who blame me. I can even play with them, be vengeful, be accepting, or denying, playing a role that is not me just to get rid of them or piss them off and a hidden ironic me laughing inside (another piece of 2nd part).

I would like to write a post about our fake world in my normality blog. One other day. See I found a motive to write one :)

I am really curious about the external things now. The studies, the job and what lies beneath. While they are not as relevant to me as the internal, failing in one of these could take me down possibly (but I think now that I could manage my life and actually ask and get what I want even if I had to return to Greece). I need to be successful with these because maybe the external environment helps with the internal too. I also love the demoscene too. It's another experience, I may had something with specific people, negative emotions with specific situations in the past, etc. but I miss the creativity. When I feel so well with the 2nd rule then I think this can work out well even inside this community.

To get on with this I have to stop writing these saddened texts to not give the opportunity to people to use them (or when writing these, write them with a purpose, with a different spirit) and show them that you believe in what you do. Or don't even bother to prove it to them since you believe it yourself.

More updates with this later, the game never ends.
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