Dark and long, self-sarcastic, nihilistic, thoughtful, overanalyzing, obsessive compulsive, dreaming, passionate, tiresome, restless, seeking..
We wonder something sometimes we do not leave without being master, nevertheless it can be obsessional and if that so, we do not believe it can be usefull.http://wolfgang-laurent.blogspot.com/I'm just wondering if those bastards can make me fail...
Hi there!I like your cryptic texts on pouet or website (it's a shame I can't read french :P). This one was less cryptic so I think I can understand a bit what you want to say.I had a fear in the past. I still have it. But it wasn't important because I knew I would be unbreakable. I was afraid that I might loose my personality. My identity. Me. My ego. I had that fear when I went deep into my thoughts and found solutions to my happiness that maybe were hostile to some parts of my personality. Maybe not.But I am not afraid. The ego has grown so strong that what is me cannot be changed in the core. Maybe it's possible to make the significant seem insignificant just to have some peace and see things from another side (because I recently remember that all I started, the obsession with demos and me making something big could be attributed in some originally insignificant events that later build my "significant" personality and focus) but the brain is so strong.I actually like one quote from Walking Life:"...what are these barriers that keep people from reaching anywhere near their real potential? The answer to that can be found in another question, and that’s this: Which is the most universal human characteristic - fear or laziness?"I am eaten by laziness. I think not by fear in my case. Fear eats people before starting this journey. I started already and something went wrong in the middle. Laziness for me and self pitty and few other factors. It was a nice trip though. The personality is formed anyway. I learned programming and not following the common route but seek my own dreams. I just like to be aware about my reality and reflecting about the ego and the brain helps (I am not much fun of new age really, I just take some good ideas that fit my own thoughts).I hope you will show those bastards who is the boss here! I like great and crazy people. They should help this world evolve in a better place for all of us. And cats of course :)
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